Quite a long time i did not write any blog. Recently i was very very busy. I had a very suffer in previous 3 weeks. Rushing for project, finished 3 big assignment in 3 weeks. 3 weeks dun have a good sleep a good entertaintment. How to describe such a horrible time. But when everything is over, the enjoy and happiness is in my heart is really something cannot describe.
When everythings over, only i found that now is in the last month of 2008, is December. Everything is going to happen soon. The day of examination my heart are coming soon. 7 days from now, 1 weeks time, can i overcome it. Or i will recall everything back. I always tell my friends, I am ok now. I am totally recover. But am i really recover, or it is just to console myself. I dunno..... 2 days ago, i was reading his blog. Only I know why he don't choose me. I am so angry of myself, in the same time i feel so sad with what he wrote. Why is the feeling will appeared in my heart. I promise myself I will never read his blog anymore. Is that a good solution for me to forget everything? I really dunno. but at least i can let go easier.
7 days, I know whatever he promise will give me he cannot do it in 7 days. After this 7 days, he cant give me anything. Everything have to pass, no one can recall back all this memory. The day of his wedding is the day of the funeral of all the memory. The secret will forever the secret, will forever bury, the box will forever lock . But the memory still remain. I can said the feeling of him is less now, cause of something he did to me recently, but how can it really let go easily, how this hurt disappeared so fast. The feeling of angry myself is strong. Cause now i have no reason to tell myself, all is his fault.