C'est La Vie

当我们同在一起

2009-01-23T07:44:00.000-08:00

最近很喜欢这首歌，独特的唱法，实在好听。。。

当我们同在一起

如果雲是天空的呼吸
風是我慌張的歎息
回憶是愛的延續只因為
你和我已經不在一起
當我們同在一起在一起在一起
空氣裡在午後的暖意
我聽著沙沙收音機
突然間下起來雨雨讓我
好想好想你
想抱著你當我們同在一起
在一起在一起在一起在一起
齊快樂無比
你是我曾經的甜蜜
我是你愛情的過去
那一段美好的記憶
我們都不能夠忘記
因為我很愛很愛你
所以能微笑著離去
雖然我不會再見你幸福是
我們曾經在一起當我們同在一起
在一起在一起在一起在一起
齊快樂無比
空氣裡有午後的暖意
我聽著沙沙收音機
唱什麼聽不清晰
因為我傻傻的笑著想起了你

国境之南 - 范逸臣

2008-12-17T05:33:00.000-08:00

最近爱上了这首歌，很好听。。。来自《海角七号》。。

作词：严云农作曲:曾志豪

如果海会说话　

如果风爱上砂

如果　有些想念遗忘在某个长假

我会聆听浪花　让风吹过头发

任记忆里的爱情在时间潮汐里喧哗

非得等春天远了夏天才近了

我是在回首时终於懂得

也许天气永远会那麼热）

当阳光再次回到那　

飘著雨的国境之南

我会试著把那一年的故事　

再接下去说完当阳光再次离开那　

太晴朗的国境之南

你会不会把你曾带走的爱　

在告别前用微笑全归还

海很蓝　星光灿烂　

我仍空著我的臂弯

天很宽　

在我独自唱歌的夜晚

请原谅我的爱　

诉说的太缓慢

谢谢你。。。

2008-12-17T04:40:00.000-08:00

终于把那脚上的绳子剪了象征着一切都已成为过去，
今后没有任何理由再牵挂你了。
今天一切过得都比想象中的平静。
今天以后，你将是别人心中的唯一，
我也将等待我的唯一。
过去的回忆将成为我坚强的见证，
成为一生的养分。
最近发觉你变了很多很多，
原来我喜欢的你已经早已不在，
原来我们是这么的不适合对方，
只是这两年我总执著着不肯放手。
直到知道你对她的选择，
我才恍然自己的努力其实早已被判了死刑。
你的选择是不可置疑的因为她真的很爱你，
甚至知道你是个一无所有的人也不惜一切和你结婚，
我坦白自己做不到，
我们的方向本来就是不一样，
只是我自己试着要把我拉得和你一样。
勉强本来就不幸福，
不适合的两个人是不能勉强的，
所以今天我很平静接受了这个事实，
其实早在开始时我就应该知道，
只是没想到一切来得这么快。
相信现在的你们一定洋溢在幸福中，
解脱对于我来说也是个幸福，
祝你们幸福快乐一辈子，
谢谢你曾经在我生命逗留，
带给我的喜怒哀乐，
教会我的东西，
一切一切都曾经因你而精彩。
谢谢你，祝福你。

7 dyas later

2008-12-09T08:27:00.000-08:00

Quite a long time i did not write any blog. Recently i was very very busy. I had a very suffer in previous 3 weeks. Rushing for project, finished 3 big assignment in 3 weeks. 3 weeks dun have a good sleep a good entertaintment. How to describe such a horrible time. But when everything is over, the enjoy and happiness is in my heart is really something cannot describe.

When everythings over, only i found that now is in the last month of 2008, is December. Everything is going to happen soon. The day of examination my heart are coming soon. 7 days from now, 1 weeks time, can i overcome it. Or i will recall everything back. I always tell my friends, I am ok now. I am totally recover. But am i really recover, or it is just to console myself. I dunno..... 2 days ago, i was reading his blog. Only I know why he don't choose me. I am so angry of myself, in the same time i feel so sad with what he wrote. Why is the feeling will appeared in my heart. I promise myself I will never read his blog anymore. Is that a good solution for me to forget everything? I really dunno. but at least i can let go easier.

7 days, I know whatever he promise will give me he cannot do it in 7 days. After this 7 days, he cant give me anything. Everything have to pass, no one can recall back all this memory. The day of his wedding is the day of the funeral of all the memory. The secret will forever the secret, will forever bury, the box will forever lock . But the memory still remain. I can said the feeling of him is less now, cause of something he did to me recently, but how can it really let go easily, how this hurt disappeared so fast. The feeling of angry myself is strong. Cause now i have no reason to tell myself, all is his fault.

Happy Birthday to me...

2008-11-03T07:52:00.000-08:00

Few more minutes later, my birthday is going to pass. Really thanks for all my friends that remember my birthday, and the wishes u all give me. Never received so many mesage before in my birthday. My handphone keep on vibrating for whole day until my message box full. Haha. Anyway you guys are the gift from God to me in my life. Friendship forever.

Erm.... what i had did for today leh? haha actually not much surprise but is still a good day for me. Yesterday i was having a drink section with my secondary school friends, whose always hang out. Even though i alreeady know wat u guys will do but i still feel happy that u all willing to make effort for my birthday surprise. The cake is so delicious, the environment Caffeehaus is so nice(the place i choose want leh) and thx for the present as well.

This morning, that is nothing special for me, i just meet a friend for some chatting, i think we have something to settle between us before i start the next section of celebration. After class, i was going out with my very best friend, for dinner and movie. Darling, thanks for your accompany me tonight, and bring me for my favourite Japanese food and the stupid , funny , dumb movie. Even that is not a surprise night, but your sincere to enjoy my day with me is so appreciate by me.

What is my birthday wishes? HAHA secret! but i have a wide range of wish is to be interesting, having new challenge, having a growth of life in my 20th years old. 2o loh.... say bye bye to 1 say hello to 2. May the rest of the day, the blessing of God fall to me.

Crazy Day

2008-10-25T08:53:00.000-07:00

24 oct, what a crazy day. The day I ever enjoy for so long. I did too much of things within this 24 hours. This is a meaningful Fiday. Morning as usual Friday, I went for morning class. This is a boring class. I don't like but still wan to enjoy it. While in the lecture, my mind was thing about the next thing to do , is the excited activities, visit KIWANIS learning disability center. The place located in Damansara Perdana. Is a very simple center. Nothing special to attract us, but is a house of hope for Autistic, down syndrome,and many many learning disability children. This is the 1st time I experienced those disability children. Their action and their living style is really something that i never imagine before. They borned to live in this kind of life, in my heart i does not feel pitiness to them, because instead of pity them love and caring is more important. They don't want pity, they want love and care, they want to be like normal children, however they cannot. Their problem is not something can solve with medicine or counselling, just like ours, but is something follow their life forever. Some children hyperactive, and hot tempered, they are not showing their aggresive toward someone but is because they cannot control themselves. We are lucky, we no need to face this since we are young. But God is not cruel, their life is happy, they enjoy in their own little world. God give them love, so they love each others. Another things is really touched my heart is the principal of the center, the sacrifices of her is really big, God see her, she will get what she suppose to get in heaven. May be 1 day in the future I would like to work as volunteerer.

After the visit, having lunch with zhixuan and a new friend Emily in 1 Utama. Is so great to know a new friend today. After lunch, going back to college for another section of learning, CAD CLASS. Omg! AutoCad 2008 is super suck! I think I prefer Autocad 2002. After class, I was rushing to meet my cousin in SS2, I never drive there( so shame never drive there).... erm i think I drove there but is long time story. That time was so jam, so nervous, when finally safe to arrived another challeging thing for me, I cannot find a parking, round and round. Finally get it. I thought I am late, who knows my cousin later than me. I suppose to accompany her to buy cloth and dress there, in the end she did not get anything but I bought 2 shirts. Haiz.... no money liao.... After that , We went home our own. Another challenging thing again, when I get the way out to LDP, I was SMSing, suddenly i found that I miss the turn, cause that time already 7 something, so dark. OMG! where am i? So nervous,so i make a turn to the residential area. Something scary again, I saw an adnormal guy walking without wearing pant. Luckily I am in the car, I stepped my oil and passed without looking at him. Again I lost in the area.Round and turn and round and turn, finally God openned my eye and show me the way out. However when I safe to drive in LDP it was so jam again. I start another worry, cause I promise my Dad to get something from my uncle's house on the way home, I was extremely late, ( elders don't like those not puncture), so i had do so many jump queue that I ever done. Finally get the things, and safe to arrived around 8 something.

Another interesting part of Friday night come, I was follow my friend for a drink, he pick me up around 9.15pm and we went for a drink with his friend. A guy I don't know. We meet in the mamak near KLCC, but it was a bad drink section. They are asking me out to join a network business, something like direct sales. The guy give me a bad impression, he is trying to insist me to join the stupid business. I had quite some times did not angry of someone, even many people make me dislike, but is just dislike, I never feel like angry until wan to punch the people, but i did not do it. After the drink, We went for a night walk in Dataran Merdaka. Nice view.....but so many Mat rempit. After the clock bell of 12 we left the place and went to another drinks again. Is so enjoy of this Friday, even my emo of the wholeday up and down, but I had quite sometimes does not enjoy my life. May be the pain in heart already decrease, I feel free.

很不舍。。。

2008-10-14T08:06:00.000-07:00

十八个星期的Autocad class终于在今天结束了。这4个多月风雨不改地每星期去上课，终于拿到了那张文凭，付出的努力终于看到了。这几个月来，最美好的就是陪我一起上课的那班coursemates,现在不是coursemates了，现在是好朋友了。和她们俩上课真的真的让我学到了很多人生道理，也很多欢乐。谢谢May，谢谢Kelly, 有你们每个星期陪我笑真的很开心。这些日子，我们无所不谈，常常开怀笑在一块。真的真的很怀念，很不舍。以后每个星期二晚我们将各忙各的了，不知道大家会否会把这片记忆好好保存在脑里。刚刚下了课后，我们一起吃了顿晚餐，不知下次相约会是几时呢？认识你们真的很美好，我会把这美好的回忆记在心上。祝我们友谊永固。

thanx......

2008-10-09T06:03:00.000-07:00

Just finished hari raya holiday, now everything back again, keep up holiday mood, is the time to start a busy life again. I have quite some time did not updated the blog, is because that is something really make my life so dull. I should write it in the blog but I know once I write it I will reveal everything to public. This is really dangerous to me and to the person. However, I know most of my friends really concerned me and help me a lot when went through the difficulty. Although some advice you all give me is not useful for me but the concerned from you all make me warm. I just want to said thank you to u all. I don't know when can I totally recover from this pain but at least the support from you all showing me that I am not alone. I also want to thanks my angel, you will always my angel. Remember what you said to me, and hold this promise, because you want me to believe you will never change. I believe, don't make me dissapointed. Thank you very much.

The deep pain in my heart.....

2008-09-25T08:20:00.000-07:00

The song I had listened for so many times, but this is the first time I feel that the song is really my heart words...

Is all I want to tell HIM...

Baby won't you tell me why

there is sadness in your eyes

I don't wanna say goodbye to you

Love is one big illusion

I should try to forget

but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up

now you're the one to make it stop

I'm the one who's feeling lost right now

Now you want me to forget every little thing you said

but there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing

The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long

But I'm not the one your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried

Now you wanna say goodbye to me

Love is one big illusion

I should try to forget

but there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing

The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long

But I'm not the one your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere

Don't know which way to go

There ain't so much to say now between us

There ain't so much for you

There ain't so much for me anymore

I won't forget the way you're kissing

The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long

But I'm not the one your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know

Holiday End.......

2008-09-21T07:50:00.000-07:00

A few hours later, my 5 months holiday going to the end. Finally, I have to go back to college and start my year 2 again. My heart is shouting " im not yet perepared". Haha.. Yes this 5 months is really make me lazy.Very lazy. Im not really done many things, I didn't join internship, I didn't go for trip, and I only did 1 dollhouse (cause im planning to do 3). That's really nothing special to flash back.
However, in this holiday I had learn a lot of experience and knowledge that make me mature. I had take 2 computer program course, which is 3D Max and Autocad. In this 2 program classes, I meet some new friends and they really open my aye and my mind from their life. I can said that really enjoying for every week section.
2nd, I was working as Sales Assisstant for almost 2 and half months. Although many of my friend look down to me, and tell me the job is very 'cheap', It really hurt me, but i get what I want. I am using my hand and my wisdom to work and get my salary. I use the money to buy what I want, but not to get money from parent. In the same time, I meet many friends and interact with many foreigner. Besides that, I learned the technique of handle some difficult relationship and technique to survive. DON'T look down to this job! DON'T think you are high class people and look down to them! You will shock when you know them!
In this holiday, I can said that I really done a good job as a daughter, a 'good' friends to certain people, and also a good worker(cause in that 2 months i help my boss to hit target:P) I have spend most of my time with my family and the love one after I resign. Of course, I also having some fun time with my new friends. Oops! that is something happy is I knew a handcraft friends. Finally that is someone can disscuss with me about dollhouse.
During this holiday, I had read quite some books, no matter self-help or interior design books. At least i get some knowledge from book. Erm....... I have done little but i get a lot.
Tommorrow another new challenge is coming. Stress is coming back. Anyway may God bless my year 2 .....

微型食玩

2008-09-19T21:38:00.000-07:00

前阵子逛Midvalley时，在某间玩具店看见有卖可爱的食玩。每次看见食玩一定很兴奋。就是有说不完的兴奋。。。这一次竟然让我找到香港系列的食玩。我偏爱中式的食玩，因为看起来比较贴切。。所以一口气买了两套，一套香港茶餐厅和太兴烧腊，每套一共十种。都是很精致的，当然这些比起亲手做的欠了些细腻，但却有特色。好喜欢哦！

不织布手作

2008-09-19T21:12:00.000-07:00

这次假期，闲着开始学做一些不织布手作。最近在杂志上常看别人做，真的蛮有趣，所以买了些现成的package 学做起来。还在书展时买了一本书参考。

忆爷爷

2008-09-14T07:34:00.000-07:00

今天是一年一度的中秋节，也是爷爷的死忌。每一年月圆人团圆时，我们都会想起爷爷，更不竟回想起2001年的中秋。那年我13岁，一向健康的爷爷从中国回来后，身体就一直很不适，不到一个月爷爷进出了三间医院，可是病情没有什么起色，脾气也越来越暴躁。爷爷本身有心脏病，60多岁就已把自己的身后事办妥，害怕自己在睡梦中离开。可是他仍然积极的活每一天。这一次大家都认为爷爷一定能熬过，然后大家能够一起过中秋，可是万万没想到爷爷真的回来一期过中秋却让大家过了个以泪洗脸的中秋。以往每年中秋或大日子爷爷都会召集大家会来吃晚餐，可是随着大家长大，事业各有各忙，很多时候都没有到齐。爷爷这次真的把所有的人都召回来了。看着已没有生命气息的爷爷，大家也真的伤心极了。。在爷爷住院的那段日子，在外地工作的爸妈也匆匆赶回来了。短短的几天爷爷重能够说话变得不能说话，四肢无力，很快便转进紧急病房。。我们天天都为他担心。记得当时还是年终考试，实在烦。。那一天，下了校车就看见屋里屋外都是人，心里已意识到不妙，一股伤感把热泪挤了出来，爷爷走了。。吃了晚餐爷爷的棺木才从医院运回来，看着已经苍白的爷爷真的叫大家悲痛。
爷爷一生为教育奉献，年轻时曾当过记者，邂逅了貌美的婆婆，当时婆婆出生于富有人家，很自然真段感情受了不少折磨，几经辛苦把婆婆娶回来。当时正值战乱年代，日军占领，当第二个孩子出世时爷爷被日军抓了，还被痛打，婆婆为了救爷爷，把她父亲留给她的钱都花了只为救爷爷。。可是也因为爷爷的事，婆婆没有时间照顾刚出世的女婴，所以把她送了给别人，现在音讯全无。。这也是爷爷的一大遗憾。。。。
小的时候，爸妈要上班，所以我和姐姐从小就在爷爷家长大。我们家男孙不多，女孙比男的多，但爷爷从来不偏心。。小时候，爷爷喜欢带我们去散步，到游乐园去荡秋千，讲故事给我们听，尤其是他与婆婆的感人爱情故事。爷爷深爱着婆婆，随然婆婆比他先走，但不论任何时候，爷爷心里的婆婆永远是那么迷人，那么漂亮。
爷爷走了留下的就只有带不走的回忆。。

心情郁闷

2008-08-15T07:34:00.000-07:00

最近辞职了。。
生活忽然从忙碌变得无聊。。。。。
一时真的迷失了自己
，加上最近多多很不必要烦恼和挣扎.
.生活真的很郁闷。。
一时真的不明白自己在干什么。。。。
真的从来没有那么茫然。。。
感情的问题前途等等。。。
。人啊真的不明白为什么总是为这些问题烦，
常想如果女人拥有一双明亮的眼睛能够把男人的真面目看清多好啊
哪么女人就不必靠着许多坎坷的经验来辨别男人。。
记得有人曾问我，
要如何辨别真假钞?
而答案是除非你看过假钞。。
只有经验让人眼睛更明亮。。。
但事问一个女人要经过多少的经验才看清男人呢?
当一个女人经历了沧海桑田或许心已淡了。。。
或许有一天当心死了再好的男人站在眼前也没有意义了。。。。
我心好累了支撑着不让它死去。。。。

一次与作家吴若权的懈逅

2008-06-02T22:02:00.000-07:00

上星期五是台湾作家吴若权来马为他新书[好人要有好人生]的讲座及签书日。因为工作不能去看。整天在想要如何‘蛇’出去听听他的讲座。看看他的人。毕竟他讲座的地方与我工作的地方如此靠近。可是最后却没办法偷溜。上帝真好，就在讲座前的几个小时，我崇拜的作家竟然出现在我的工作地方。他穿着一件白色短袖唐装，一身朴素没人认得出他。不知是因为他太朴素还是没人看过他的书。哈哈。。。。他说着一口台湾华语，来寻找一对耳环准备送给一位印尼女子。。。

观查了一阵子才把他认出，他是个温柔又有礼貌的人，还能说一口流利的英语。看见他实在美妙极了。。。。从来没想过会有机会与他近距离接触。。。。他不但是个很有智慧的作家，无论散文和励志书都些得很棒。。。虽然他买的东西并不贵，短短的几分钟相处已很不错了。最后他还对我说‘要加油噢’。。。。一句短短的勉励从他口里出来真是难能可贵。。。。可惜来不及和他来个合照。。。。。。。。。哈哈

令人讨厌的中国人

2008-05-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

今天已经进入工作的第六天，其实真的不很喜欢这份工作，但为了钱还真的要委屈一下。我不喜欢这份工作是因为觉得做sales很无聊兼很累。常常要奉承那些讨厌的顾客，又要假装温柔，还要欺骗别人。真的很烦。

除了工作上的无奈，人事上也很厌烦。遇上那些不醒目的同事还真的倒霉极了。。。。总是虚情假意。。。前面奉承你后面刀刺你真的很讨厌。。。虽然很生气但对我而言和这些低等教育的人较量真有损我的尊严。

但是再生气的却是那些臭中国人和臭阿拉伯人。这些人整天要多多折扣，然后说一些听不懂的语言乱叫，真的像足泰山出城。前几天有两个口讲‘泰山语’的中国人来选购。为什么说是泰山语呢。。。。因为她们都七嘴八舌的讲着不知什么的方言。。。。。期中一位大概有六七十岁的老太婆看上了某条项链。她很没礼貌得把她拿下，再问我哪不懂华语的同事项链的价钱。当然最后还是转问到我这里来。哪我就问她项链从哪取的她却指了某处价钱较便宜的角落说是从那里取的，我也不以为意把打折后的价钱告诉她，后来我发觉价钱其实更贵，便马上道歉再告诉她准确的价钱。。可是这时的她恼羞成怒，对我破口大骂，她带上那条链，丢下了人民币，是少过之钱的价钱的，接着就跑了。我们追上去，甚至告诉她，给不够钱就拿货走是偷窃。她竟然送我一句‘你是不可能告我的’。。。。然后只听见她唠唠叨叨一面走一面骂。。。。。看来她的精神失常。后来把她丢下的人民币换了才发觉真的很少。。。。可怜的我只好想办法补贴。。。。

对于中国人真的是佩服他们不知羞耻的态度。。。他们身为土生土长的中国人竟然连高尚的中华传统美德都没有，就连礼毅廉耻都不懂，真可悲。平时喜欢在高级场合大喊大叫已经令大家反感现在连偷都干了。如果让我再遇上这种人我肯定会告诉他们，‘买不起就不要买，和别人争得面红耳红真丢脸，人心不足蛇吞象，早点回家反省反省，不要把这里当成是泰山园，马来西亚人比你们更有文化修养。可恶的中国人。。。。。。。。。

迷你居酒屋

2008-05-20T07:55:00.000-07:00

放假了这么久终于发觉生活有了少许意义，我的微型艺术灵感又来了。最新的作品又要登场了。用了大概一个星期时间，我的微型和式居酒屋终于在今凌晨12.55am完成了。就在这和大家分享制作心得。

隔了大概一年多才有新作品。其实嘛，制作娃娃屋和平时的project model是两回事。别人以为都是一样的。就像当我在制作时有人觉得我很无聊平时做这么多放假还在做模型。错了.我其实很享受娃娃屋制作。娃娃屋是靠感觉，从构思到制作都可以想象得天马行空又或效仿看过的建筑物。比起平时做的简单多了没有任何约束，只要自己喜欢都可以放进去。感觉就是其中心点。娃娃屋可以放入各种小物使它变得生动，model讲究创意,space planning, constuction, client's needs等等.... 当然以上是个人观点。

说回这个居酒屋的构思，是上星期和巧盈去看了部叫‘怪谈’的电影。戏里头都有出现不少日本传统建筑物，就这样一时兴起想做一间以和式传统屋为题材的娃娃屋。可是这种建筑物是很复杂的所以放弃传统屋改建一间简单但又有和式风味的居酒屋。再添加一个日式庭院让它生动起来。第一天开工时，很倒霉的割伤了手指流血不止，以为可能要放弃了，后来还是继续做，终于在六天内完成了。

居酒屋是日本人饮酒吃饭聚会的地方。所以家的感觉是这间屋子的中心点。进入屋子前是一片庭院，和式庭院当然有小水井和石头灯还有一些植物及小石子。大门旁有个小橱柜用来摆放食物模型。大门上方的布帘写着一些我看不懂的日文，都是书上找的。推开木门，室内就一目了然。右边是一张寿司桌子，一桌子摆满了各式各样日本料理有拉面啦，饭啦，还有甜品。玻璃箱里则摆着格式的酱料和三文鱼。桌上有一把刀，感觉就像师傅在忙碌。左边是比较高的单位，是给那些需要私人空间的客人。两个单位都有日式桌灯，再配上一些小石子。可惜没有买灯泡，没办法把它亮起来。矮桌上有我爱吃的冷面。在昏暗的灯光下，整间店铺显得更有气氛。

以上一些照片供欣赏，欢迎你们的意见，任何娃娃屋达人也欢迎你们和我分享心得~~~

New blog

2008-05-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

Finally i have my own blog... Basically i do not really know what a blogger life about. But I am just want to try something new in my life. Not going to make it as my fulltime work, but may become part of my life to release my stress, to let my friend know what i've been, and share my life to everyone. Anyway the blog may writing in different language that i know... It is my personal soul release place ....my new blog.