Quite a long time i did not write any blog. Recently i was very very busy. I had a very suffer in previous 3 weeks. Rushing for project, finished 3 big assignment in 3 weeks. 3 weeks dun have a good sleep a good entertaintment. How to describe such a horrible time. But when everything is over, the enjoy and happiness is in my heart is really something cannot describe.
When everythings over, only i found that now is in the last month of 2008, is December. Everything is going to happen soon. The day of examination my heart are coming soon. 7 days from now, 1 weeks time, can i overcome it. Or i will recall everything back. I always tell my friends, I am ok now. I am totally recover. But am i really recover, or it is just to console myself. I dunno..... 2 days ago, i was reading his blog. Only I know why he don't choose me. I am so angry of myself, in the same time i feel so sad with what he wrote. Why is the feeling will appeared in my heart. I promise myself I will never read his blog anymore. Is that a good solution for me to forget everything? I really dunno. but at least i can let go easier.
7 days, I know whatever he promise will give me he cannot do it in 7 days. After this 7 days, he cant give me anything. Everything have to pass, no one can recall back all this memory. The day of his wedding is the day of the funeral of all the memory. The secret will forever the secret, will forever bury, the box will forever lock . But the memory still remain. I can said the feeling of him is less now, cause of something he did to me recently, but how can it really let go easily, how this hurt disappeared so fast. The feeling of angry myself is strong. Cause now i have no reason to tell myself, all is his fault.
ends at 8:27 AM
Monday, November 3, 2008Y
Happy Birthday to me...
Few more minutes later, my birthday is going to pass. Really thanks for all my friends that remember my birthday, and the wishes u all give me. Never received so many mesage before in my birthday. My handphone keep on vibrating for whole day until my message box full. Haha. Anyway you guys are the gift from God to me in my life. Friendship forever.
Erm.... what i had did for today leh? haha actually not much surprise but is still a good day for me. Yesterday i was having a drink section with my secondary school friends, whose always hang out. Even though i alreeady know wat u guys will do but i still feel happy that u all willing to make effort for my birthday surprise. The cake is so delicious, the environment Caffeehaus is so nice(the place i choose want leh) and thx for the present as well.
This morning, that is nothing special for me, i just meet a friend for some chatting, i think we have something to settle between us before i start the next section of celebration. After class, i was going out with my very best friend, for dinner and movie. Darling, thanks for your accompany me tonight, and bring me for my favourite Japanese food and the stupid , funny , dumb movie. Even that is not a surprise night, but your sincere to enjoy my day with me is so appreciate by me.
What is my birthday wishes? HAHA secret! but i have a wide range of wish is to be interesting, having new challenge, having a growth of life in my 20th years old. 2o loh.... say bye bye to 1 say hello to 2. May the rest of the day, the blessing of God fall to me.
ends at 7:52 AM
Saturday, October 25, 2008Y
24 oct, what a crazy day. The day I ever enjoy for so long. I did too much of things within this 24 hours. This is a meaningful Fiday. Morning as usual Friday, I went for morning class. This is a boring class. I don't like but still wan to enjoy it. While in the lecture, my mind was thing about the next thing to do , is the excited activities, visit KIWANIS learning disability center. The place located in Damansara Perdana. Is a very simple center. Nothing special to attract us, but is a house of hope for Autistic, down syndrome,and many many learning disability children. This is the 1st time I experienced those disability children. Their action and their living style is really something that i never imagine before. They borned to live in this kind of life, in my heart i does not feel pitiness to them, because instead of pity them love and caring is more important. They don't want pity, they want love and care, they want to be like normal children, however they cannot. Their problem is not something can solve with medicine or counselling, just like ours, but is something follow their life forever. Some children hyperactive, and hot tempered, they are not showing their aggresive toward someone but is because they cannot control themselves. We are lucky, we no need to face this since we are young. But God is not cruel, their life is happy, they enjoy in their own little world. God give them love, so they love each others. Another things is really touched my heart is the principal of the center, the sacrifices of her is really big, God see her, she will get what she suppose to get in heaven. May be 1 day in the future I would like to work as volunteerer.
After the visit, having lunch with zhixuan and a new friend Emily in 1 Utama. Is so great to know a new friend today. After lunch, going back to college for another section of learning, CAD CLASS. Omg! AutoCad 2008 is super suck! I think I prefer Autocad 2002. After class, I was rushing to meet my cousin in SS2, I never drive there( so shame never drive there).... erm i think I drove there but is long time story. That time was so jam, so nervous, when finally safe to arrived another challeging thing for me, I cannot find a parking, round and round. Finally get it. I thought I am late, who knows my cousin later than me. I suppose to accompany her to buy cloth and dress there, in the end she did not get anything but I bought 2 shirts. Haiz.... no money liao.... After that , We went home our own. Another challenging thing again, when I get the way out to LDP, I was SMSing, suddenly i found that I miss the turn, cause that time already 7 something, so dark. OMG! where am i? So nervous,so i make a turn to the residential area. Something scary again, I saw an adnormal guy walking without wearing pant. Luckily I am in the car, I stepped my oil and passed without looking at him. Again I lost in the area.Round and turn and round and turn, finally God openned my eye and show me the way out. However when I safe to drive in LDP it was so jam again. I start another worry, cause I promise my Dad to get something from my uncle's house on the way home, I was extremely late, ( elders don't like those not puncture), so i had do so many jump queue that I ever done. Finally get the things, and safe to arrived around 8 something.
Another interesting part of Friday night come, I was follow my friend for a drink, he pick me up around 9.15pm and we went for a drink with his friend. A guy I don't know. We meet in the mamak near KLCC, but it was a bad drink section. They are asking me out to join a network business, something like direct sales. The guy give me a bad impression, he is trying to insist me to join the stupid business. I had quite some times did not angry of someone, even many people make me dislike, but is just dislike, I never feel like angry until wan to punch the people, but i did not do it. After the drink, We went for a night walk in Dataran Merdaka. Nice view.....but so many Mat rempit. After the clock bell of 12 we left the place and went to another drinks again. Is so enjoy of this Friday, even my emo of the wholeday up and down, but I had quite sometimes does not enjoy my life. May be the pain in heart already decrease, I feel free.